Living to our potential

Wouldn't it figure that just as soon as we're able to start saving money, instead of spending to get ahead, everything would go awry?

I went back to work for the first time in nearly 3 weeks today. 

This payday I made the decision to buy curtains to finish off "the look" of our room (and hide my storage bins) to maintain my sanity. It was going to be the last thing I was going to buy toward that end for quite awhile. I'm sick of spending money on this darn little area. Upon bringing the curtains home it became evident that I bought them 2 feet too short.

I made my trip back to Target this morning to exchange them, in doing so I also found what looked to be the cutest tank top to wear at work because I had planned my wardrobe poorly for the newfound spring weather (AND it was 75% off!). Only to realize it was a jumpsuit tank top, not JUST a tank top! Haha!

My stomach has been having problems lately - serious frustrating problems. I've felt pretty sure for several months now that I have something along the lines of Celiac  Disease and have put off getting actually tested for it because I'm a cheapskate and don't want deal with the numerous co-pays it will take to get all the proper testing done. I have cut gluten out of my diet just to see if there is a difference and there certainly is. I resolved today that I'm going to bite the bullet and actually go to the doctor to have the testing done.

Go figure it would also happen today that my car just dies. Driving home about a mile and a half - two mils from home and it just quit on me. Not a battery thing either. The engine more or less exploded, probably due to a lack of oil because of an oil leak.

Now I'm carless and we're having to shop for a new one.

It's really inconvenient timing (as if a dead car is ever convenient!). With Kenny going back to school, we're trying to save money (especially for a new insulin pump for me with mine out of warranty), I'll be, once again, set back and continuing in my super cheapskate ways and delaying the blood tests a little longer. I'd really just love to get the Dexcom system I've talked about before and that's another huge Durable Medical Equipment co-pay, like my insulin pump.

I think God allows these things in our lives to encourage us to live up to our full potential. Taking life in stride as it comes to us. I try to do my best, and have taken the whole car-exploding-thing quite well this evening. It's "par for the course" and, well, doesn't phase me as much as it should.

Of course when I sit down and think it all out I get a little more depressed about it, knowing how much we'll have to spend to get a "new to me" car. We just paid off our credit card and I'm bummed about having to put money back on it. Tonight I feel like we have taken many steps backward and are gaining no forward motion, like we have planned on.

Again, we are being spurred on to live to our full potential. How will we handle this hurdle? How will we deal with everything that is thrown at us? I don't know! We'll take one day at a time. For now, I'm not sweating the car. It's just a thing. God knew this was going to happen. It will all work out somehow, though I have NO idea how yet!

One of those days

You know those days?

Those days where:

You realize you looked like an idiot when you went running yesterday because you wore your really nice earrings and necklace with your running outfit.

Your playing with your child then just fall over into a wall because you tripped over your pj pants that are too long for you (no matter what) because you're only 5 feet tall.

You forget to put money in the meter when you're downtown for an hour and a half - panic when you realize how dumb you are. Then thank God when there is no ticket (even though the parking ticket police have been awful all day).

Your daughter loses her shoe somewhere in wal-mart and you didn't even realize it until a nice mom points it out to you at the check stand. ...then you go looking everywhere for it (and you have no idea where you lost it. How could you be so un-observant) and still don't find it.

You didn't realize that your daughter has a huge cherry colored goose-egg on her forehead from where she hit it on the ground while throwing a fit earlier until 5 hours later.

Your land-lord suddenly changes the renters agreement that has been in place for the last 3 years - and you've relied up on it because of when you get paid during the month - now you don't know how you're going to handle it.

You get told if you lose weight you won't have to use an insulin pump any more by a random person in the grocery store. You might normally laugh but since you've been gaining weight recently it hits a sore spot.

You are trying to do the right thing and say what has been on your mind for months - and it just gets a dear friend flat out angry with you. ...but helps the other person.

You've been having stomach problems for the better part of a year and it acts up on a day that is already full of other things.

You feel guilty for missing your husband when he's out on a Poker night - and he never ever goes to things like that.

...yeah it's been one of those days. Much like this song by the ever so awesome Supertones