Not Me! Monday!

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This fun little thing is hosted by MckMama. Pop on over to her blog to see hers and many more!

This week I did NOT happen to see my daughter playing with my computer - she knows she's not supposed to touch - and pretended to not notice. I didn't watch as she closed the lid and the music that was on stopped and she started crying. I certainly did not laugh at my distraught daughter!

I also did NOT leave my car in gear as I was getting out of my seat while Kenny was trying to put Rylee in the back seat. It did NOT scare the crap out of me and cause my sweet husband to yell at me. No, I would never do such a stupid careless thing - and he would never yell at me for being so stupid. Not us!

We are also NOT sleeping in our living room on the couch/floor so that we can get a few hours of sleep while trying to teach our daughter to sleep in her crib for more than 2 hours at a time. I am NOT anxious about doing this at all, it's for her own good and to be a good mother I shouldn't have a problem with this, right?

I have also NOT taken up knitting to add to my list of other crafty things I love and I have NOT become obsessive about it. I don't try knitting every possible couple minutes of free time I have - leaving the dishes I need to do undone. Nope, not me!


Furthermore, I did not photograph my daughter sleeping like she broke her poor little neck! No, I'd have sat her up and figured out how her car seat would let her slump down like that right away!

Say What!?

My baby is 10 months old already!? No way! I don't believe it!

....well, actually, I kinda do believe it. Every bit of it, and I'm still loving it!

I am really glad I've taken the time to really cherish every moment of my adorable daughters babyhood.

She has recently taken to shaking her head "no" and it's SO cute! She is starting to learn cause and effect, so sometimes that "no" shaking is purposeful. Other times it's just because she's enjoying the act of it.

Still not walking but is coming ever so close. I can't wait until she does. Seriously. No, I'm not crazy. What most people are not understanding is that she still insists on being held and in my arms as much as she can be - even though she can crawl around everywhere. She's getting much more adventurous and is crawling away from me at times - but those moments are few (which I'm okay with. I do love her dependency on me.).

She still says "mama" with cute regularity. No "papa" yet. We were sitting with her a couple mornings ago trying to get her to say papa and she'd look directly at Kenny and say "mama!" It was awesome. I think she says "numnum" for food, but it's undetermined if that's purposeful yet - still cute, though!

Ever more curious about things in life, like cows!

Normal

I don't usually talk about it, it's part of my daily life. I don't feel like it's "different" most days - it's just how I live. Being Diabetic, though, does have its difficult days for me.

Being pregnant was difficult, and yet so worth it. Being a mom, and diabetic is a whole new can of worms. I worry about lows when I'm alone with her - but I usually push those worries to the back of my mind. I've never had a low that I couldn't take care of myself.

A couple mornings ago Kenny was in the shower and I was trying to get out of bed but my blood sugar had dropped so low that I wasn't sure I could pick up my crying child before getting food. - Of course she was in bed with us so I couldn't just leave her there or she'd try and follow me and get hurt. I managed to bring her to the living room - which isn't all that far - and she was happy to sit and play while I shoveled left over birthday cake into my mouth.

It was the first time that had happened to me since she was born. I hope it does not become a regular thing.

Then there are those awful high blood sugars. I feel like crap and I'm not as patient with her, especially when she's teething, as I want to be. That bothers me a lot.

Suffice to say that I try to avoid both - but both are not avoidable all the time. Just a fact of life, my daily life. We carry on, eating, playing, taking insulin and eating and playing some more, hoping for the best.

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Have I mentioned TEETHING lately??? Oh.My.Gosh. Rylee has been almost nightmarish. I've been going back and forth in my thoughts the last couple days wondering if she's got an ear infection she's been so bad.

NOT sleeping at night. Fussy almost all day - except a couple preciously cute moments. She usually likes riding in the car and just babbles on and on - last couple days: Screaming her head off. She's not eating as much as usual. Wants to nurse constantly but only for a couple seconds (which is REALLY inconvenient).

Kenny and I love her adorable toothless grins and haven't been excited for her to get teeth (are we bad!?), but right now I just want SOMETHING to happen! It's been going on since she was 3 months old - not constantly, but enough. This week just takes the cake, though. Please, little teeth, won't you just pop through??? OR let me know there is something else wrong!!!! heehee.

Okay. My poor little girl, though. I just want to fix it.

Oh Sweet Winter!

It's definitely letting us know it's trying to make its grand entrance!

It's only a little into October and I feel like I might need to break out my winter jacket! YEESH! SO COLD HERE.

It's "fine" during the day this week when the sun is out and there is no wind. Just need a light hoodie. Put that wind chill factor in and OH MAN it is COLD.

THEN, that blessed sun sets and it gets even COLDER.

I make a point every year to try and make it as long as possible without wearing my winter jacket. Why? I don't know! I just like the mind over matter that it takes to get my body acclimated to the temperatures. I usually make it till sometime in December. I don't think that's gonna happen this year.

I've spent the last few days trying to find Rylee a winter jacket. A month ago when we had NO extra money there were cute ones (also when it was still 90º here). Now there are none when we have a little extra.

I have also spent the last few days trying to find her some reasonably priced snow boots that are bendable/not hard-soled. You'd think they'd do that for petite babies. Rylee is a small baby, not quite walking yet but will be come time to wear those stinking boots. We get real winters here too, not a light dusting of snow that shuts Seattle down for the week.

I have a feeling this winter is gonna be crazy like last year, the winter that Rylee brought in. But it's starting MUCH earlier than it has. Maybe it won't stretch as long into what should be our Spring time? That would be awesome. Heehee.

My baby will be a year old in 2 months. I cannot believe that. I remember allllll too vividly how AWFUL I felt this time last year. Praying I didn't throw up while at work because of heart burn. Trying to work with my back that was trying to snap in 2 because of my 9 pound baby in the making. Trying to not dye from my broken ribs thanks to my sweet gymnast. Yes, that was what was happening this time last year.

This time 2 years ago I was pregnant with our twins and just finding out. We had only been married a few months. It was a crazy time in life. The last 2 years have been intense and I am in the longest stretch of "unpregnancy" as I have been in since marrying my love.

Ya know, I am just fine with that!!!

I feel like we're starting to get things a little more figured out right. Rylee is growing and learning. We're getting our debts paid off and thinking about actually getting Kenny back to school. I'm working more regularly. Yes, things, though still tumultuous, are coming along quite swimmingly.

My best friend is getting married. Gotta start working on Christmas presents, and Christmas Cards, and a "newsletter" from our humble little family. Yes, these last 2 years have been "Banner Years" for us. Much to be thankful for. Much to remember. Much to come.

I should be sleeping now. "Sleep when the baby sleeps." Yeah Right.

Puppy Love

Puppies are cute and lovable, right?? This one certainly is.

I think they are cute. Especially when it happens to be my lovely sister in law's new baby. And probably the only cousin Rylee'll ever have from them. Heehee.

Although it looks like Rylee is in total love with this adorable little thing, she was not impressed. She continued to crawl around after the other dogs, but not this one. I think she'll warm up to it next time. For today, though, she was happy being left alone.

She much preferred crawling around and looking at leaves on this blustery day.

Or squinting in the wind.

Or checking out the tree roots and following the camera around.

Yes, she really had no need for that puppy in the window face

Two Steps Forward, Four Steps Back.

I'm getting quite frustrated with that pattern of life. I have to remember that God is in control, and try and give it up to him.

I needed prescriptions written a couple weeks ago so that when I needed them I could fill them. I did NOT give the authorization to have them filled, though! I'm SO frustrated with figuring out new insurance companies. So, I'm getting prescriptions mailed to me now that cost more than I was prepared to pay for (or even can!) AND I don't even need yet! I just wanted them on hand for when I DO need them. I hate jumping through the hoops - even when I do I seem to get screwed.

As my luck goes, it's "re-enrollment" time at Kenny's Work for health insurance. Rates are going up for prescriptions and premiums. We have a choice between 2 different insurance plans and I cannot see a clear difference between the two.

Our Car insurance company screwed us over this month as well - evidently USPS didn't deliver an important paper to them so our rates went up A LOT. I got that changed today but I'm not sure it'll go through before it is supposed to get withdrawn!

I'm so done with all this. Stupid crap. Bad timing. Stupid incompetent people.

I'm going stir crazy at home without Kenny. I like when I've got a couple minutes to myself when he plays with Rylee after getting home. I'm really excited to go into work tomorrow. Get out of the house. Have other human interaction. It'll be great. If I could only pin down this constant influx of money issues - everything would be great!!!!!

When the Cat is away the Mouse will....

CLEAN!?

Evidently! When we moved into our apartment before Rylee was born we pretty much shoved EVERYTHING we could into our second bedroom that was going to be Rylee's. I worked to get things put away as much as I could with what little energy I had. Theeeen the Baby Showers happened. That room got filled back up with ALL sorts of baby things. By the time she was born It was kinda set up. 1/2 filled with our junk from moving in and the other 1/2 with baby stuff I didn't have a place for.

My kitchen has also been a source of grief for me as well. I hate clutter and the kitchen table is always a clutter-creator it seems. The filing cabinet that sat next to the kitchen table also seemed to create clutter.

Well, I had enough of it finally! Heehee. Having moved Rylee's crib into our bedroom with us many months ago I decided she'll just stay in there with us for now, eventually she'll get that second room - if we don't move first. That second room is going to be my craft room/Kenny's computer crap room. I hate when he wants to work on a silly computer project and we have to go tearing the house apart to find whatever it is he's looking for. Now it will all be in one place.

That is still a work in progress - getting that all set up right. BUT - I got it CLEAN! The first pictures are my Kitchen table area before and after. This could only look that way after cleaning out the bedroom, though. Which was a MUCH greater feat.




This room has been the bane of my existence for nearly a year now. The first picture is awful. It's what it has been for quite awhile and I kept the door closed so I wouldn't have to look at it! heehee.


Now, There is still a bit of "clutter" stacked on top of that desk - but its organized clutter! Making SO much more sense to life and once I get a couple other storage type things those will all have a proper place as well.


I am SO pleased with it I just like to go stand in the middle of that echo-y room. Haha. Yeah, I'm retarded. My house is clean now, though!! I feel much better about my existence in life!